(The Matrix)
As of late I’m finding myself consciously believing only 80 percent of what people say and do. It’s not because I am going out of my way to stay a step ahead, and it’s not that I am surrounded by shady characters. I’ve just realized that some people have reserved a part of themselves where they will not allow the truth in. This has nothing to do with me or anyone else, and most importantly it is their right to do so. Now I can finally stop banging my head against the wall trying to figure out why people bother lying, or are unable to admit the facts. Thank you Lord!
However, it still leads me to question if truth actually brings with it the promise of freedom? And if so, then why do people go out of their way to avoid it? After much deliberation, I’ve found that some are unable to handle it because the guilt would be way too much. Some have found a way to cover up their actual truth and let people’s perceptions of them become their living truth, hence disappointing family and friends just isn’t an option. Some have lied so long that the truth is just too scary to try. Then there are some that do not see the value in knowing the truth, which encourages others to keep running from it. In actuality the truth may set some free through vindication, but can leave others feeling ashamed and even tormented. And from that perspective, is it always worth it? I don’t know. Of course logically and rightfully speaking it is, but realistically at all times, I’m not so sure.
Learning and searching for the truth isn’t an easy or pleasant process, so why do some of us put ourselves through it? I can only speak for myself. It may be that I am hopeful that someone will confirm that I’m not CRAZY! I saw what I saw and I heard what I heard. Unfortunately, what I have also realized is that people cannot be trusted to validate your perspective or the actual truth if it risk their own reputation, which they now guard with their lives. Unless there is a reward attached to it, if you are after the truth, you can often find yourself by yourself. Not to mention there are a plethora of contradictions about right and wrong in our society, leaving those who are very impressionable to conclude if you get away with a lie, it’s not that bad. While many may want their kids to grow up and become admirable people, their actions show the opposite. Instead of supporting the truth they resent people who do have these qualities, and are more comfortable around those who don’t shine a light on their shortcomings, especially if integrity is one of them.
No doubt that personality and upbringing impacts your appreciation for the truth. If you were reared in a home that valued it instead of only using it when there was no alternative, you may care more than most. If you ever considered pursuing a career in law enforcement, or you enjoy figuring people out, you too may care more than most.
I was reminded yesterday that the truth does set you free because once you know it you can make choices based on the information versus having no knowledge at all. I agree, but it most certainly comes with a price. There is no predictor of when it is coming, it’s likely that you will not be prepared to receive it. When it finally arrives the shock of it can almost do as much damage as the act, and end up affecting the people who were initially thought would be the farthest removed. Don’t get me wrong, I am a strong advocate of the truth. I am aware of the devastation that it causes when it is not chosen right away, and it is because of this I know how lonely of a stance it can be. Recently, I had to state and learn of some harsh truths. My response reminded me of a humorous line in the movie Benjamin Button, “You never really know what’s coming for you.” Life is funny like that….kind of.
Rachel Bryant Lundy
